We were supposed to be together this weekend. At first, it was to be Friday. My town had maybe 6 inches of snow, hers had less. But there were spots in between that had close to a foot, with more coming on top of it. Badly as we were missing each other, the weekend was young and we decided it wasn't worth taking our lives into our hands...
So then it was on to Saturday. The plan was that we were going to spin our respective alibis and sneak off mid-evening, and probably stagger home sometime after closing time, in my case probably chugging a quick shot of something on my way to bed and feigning tipsy. We spent most of the morning and early afternoon texting back and forth as we always do, not about anything in particular that I recall. It got to be about 5, and one of us finally got around to saying 'so, about tonight...'
Well, neither of us had our alibis in order, and for whatever reason we got our communication all crossed up. I guess I sounded wishy-washy, and like I wouldn't be able to get away. Frances ran her alibi up the flagpole, and it didn't go over well. The Man had apparently been set on spending some 'quality time' with her and played his sad puppy dog act. I was worried, but she assured me that she could still get out of it, and that he didn't seem to mean that kind of 'quality time.'
But apparently he did. He was intent on having his way with her. And she argued, and told him no, and made it perfectly clear that she had no interest. But when push came to shove, she had no way out of it. She brought it to an end quickly, but by that point the damage was done. It was too late. Our evening together was gone.
And I'm trying to be done dwelling, but I was hurt and angry and just fucking sick about it. See, the thing is this... The longer we go on, the more territorial I get and the more it pains me every time they're together. It didn't used to be like this, for either of us. We used to practically cheer each other on in our activities at home. It was like boys in the locker room or something. We'd bitch to each other about not getting laid, and then brag about it when we finally did, and repeat...
I'm not sure EXACTLY when the change happened, but I think it had to do with the couch incident. This was back in about February, early on for us. Frances and I were bantering in our typical fashion, and it came up that the Man never really fucked her on their couch. To which, my response, obviously, was 'well, I will!' We continued playing back and forth with it for a few days, which included her sending me a yummy picture of her all sprawled out on the couch for me. And then, as I remember it, the Man got home from being gone for a couple days, and she was waiting on the couch for him... :-/
I felt hurt, cheated, betrayed, you name it... And it erupted into the biggest fight we'd ever had at that point. I looked through the email archives while writing this, which was not entirely pleasant, and I offer you some excerpts...
d:
I know I'm not very justified in feeling this way, but I really felt like it was mine and you took it from me. We had this whole discussion about it, how that was something he doesn't do, and you and I would be all about, and you had lured me in with beautiful sexy pictures, and I felt a little bit like we had claimed it somehow. And then you kind of ran right out and did it without me. I almost feel like that picture's not for me anymore...
f:
you are completely justified. and i am incredibly sorry. especially after having read all this. ugh...my heart is hurting, but i completely understand. i wish i had some way to explain it. some reason that would make it ok. the only thing that comes to mind is that i thought it would never actually happen for us. and maybe that in some way i didn't think it fair for us to have something that wasn't his as well. does that make any sense? i mean i'm trying to keep my loyalty there in some way you know? as much i as i wanted the couch to be all yours, deep down maybe the guilt of giving it to you was too much.
d:
*pouting* Doesn't mean you had to give it to him instead though, does it? It does (make sense). But that's kind of what stings about it, because I really wanted us to (have something that wasn't his).
f:
no! not 'instead'...but it was almost like, IF i gave it to him, i could ALSO give it to you and some how alleviate some of my guilt. grr...i'm sorry. i am all sorts of complicated. on one hand i have all this guilt about giving you something that isn't his and on the other i ABSOLUTELY want us to have something that is ours and no body elses. i think it would totally bond us together and take the relationship to another level and that is what scares me i think. i am too sentimental. everything just means too much.
d:
I hope you realize, baby, that's it's not really about the couch, it was never about the couch. Sure, it sounded hot, but whether it's the couch or something else, I REALLY don't care. What I wanted was that it was ours. Not that it doesn't still sound nice, but it's not ever going to be exciting in the same way I'm afraid. And I would REALLY love for us to have something. Even if it's such a small thing or a subtle distinction that only we would know.
f:
:-( i love and i hate reading this. it is so wonderful to hear how passionate you are about having something that is just ours, but it just reminds me how this could have been avoided. grr...i WILL make this up to you.
And from that point on, I basically began to take her from him piecemeal, one place and deed and little trick at a time. The first thing I took was a big one, and one I've occasionally felt a bit guilty about taking. One of our favorite things together is for Frances to climb into my lap and ride me. It's REALLY fucking good. Unfortunately, it's also a bit of a favorite of the Man's. But at the time, I think I was feeling a little vindictive. I didn't just need us to have something for us. I also needed to take something away from him, to make up for the thing he took away from me. It came to me in a flash, with Frances in my lap in some hotel bed. THIS needed to be ours. So I asked for it, knowing that it was a big one. And because she loves me, she gave it to me. And I know it hasn't always been an easy thing to do. I know he's asked for it, and I know she's had to work her magic to not give it to him. But I love her for it.
As time's gone on, there have been a few others added to the list. Things that I thought were ours already that were maybe not as much a thing of the past as I'd believed... But for every new thing that's mine, there's another that I want to take. There's more to say about this, I know... But what it all comes down to is that I won't be satisfied until she's ALL mine. I can hope...
ps (1/1/09): I forgot... We DID eventually make it to the couch. And while this little incident certainly crossed our minds, we had one of the most loving and wonderfully intense evenings we've ever had on that couch. So there. ;-) -d.



lips: great for hours of face-chafing-bite-your-lips-off makeout sessions that usually lead to nether nibbles and endless amounts of orgasms.
hands: always perfect for holding and providing a relaxing massage, but mostly appreciated for their work on a certain spot named 'g'.
balls: these huge soft sacks full of tasty come never let me down. they always seem to have another load ready, be it the first or the THIRD time in 6 hours.
the complete package: the perfect curve and an oversize head make it not only the prettiest cock i've seen, but the best for working all those hard to reach innermost spots.



